Undecided

My life up to now has been full of schooling, fellowship and structure.  However, as this year comes closer and closer to an end, I realize how my life is going to change…drastically. The hard part about the future is running into the unknown.  This battle of flesh and faith constantly at the helm of my ship.  A ship that can take wrong turns which could lead to disaster.  I see God, but I don’t know how to follow.  Prayer seems repetitive and action is required, but the action I want to take could be my downfall.  The constant fear of doing something wrong holds me back from a dream so far-fetched.  Is this dream right or wrong? I don’t know. Is it from God? I am unsure. How and when will I know? Never. Is it time I just step through the door, even with the possibility of failure?  I draw to a final conclusion of yes, but not a comforting yes.  It’s a yes of faith.  The yes where there are still worries, doubts, and fears.  The yes where only God can come through.  I can’t take the yes upon my shoulders, but I can only rest upon Him alone.  My desire is that this will stir something inside of you and keep you thirsting after Jesus.